jayfox said:Yeah, I have no explanation as to why you didn;t find God initially, except that maybe the timing wasn't right for you. With God life is all about a journey, not necessarily a 'cliff top moment' where you either jump or you don't. Perhaps it wasn't in God's plan to reveal Himself to you at that stage? Perhaps He wants you to continue searching for Him to show that you are genuinely seeking him and not easily giving up? He always reveals Himself to those that truly want a relationship with Him but it is always in His timing, not theirs. I'd encourage you to continue your search as my relationship with God is the greatest thing in my life which I know will never leave me. When everything else on Earth is wrong and sucks, you can always talk to God and know that He loves you and wants the best for you. It doesn't mean He will make your life easy but He will enable you to cope.
Maybe I will try again one day but I doubt it.
I dunno just sitting there watching others in some place I couldn't relate to at all just made me feel awkward and out of place.
This was over a period of about a year mind you so I didn't give it up after a week or two.
As for 'God', I felt nothing. Zip.
Just felt like I was wasting my time singing a few songs and listening/reading words that meant little to me apart from being a good story.
Others around me were in a place I simply couldn't see no matter how much I tried. I have since learned I am far from alone with this experience.
It wasn't enough to keep me around so I stopped going but as I said I did meet some nice people there.
Good luck to those that find what they are looking for through Christianity but it just wasn't for me.
I'll possibly even send my own son along to youth groups etc. so he can make up his own mind.
If anything after spending a few years in Thailand I am far more interested in Buddism than I am in Christianity and I find myself leaning towards that direction if anything but am still unconvinced.